Can't sleep
Can’t sleep. Been up since 2am so finally decided to write. I tried all the usual stuff- get a snack, take a bath, play a video game for a couple hours. I tried to make some AI art but the app isn’t working… So I am giving up going back to sleep and jot so sure I’m up to dealing with the day to he honest. I feel like a fat pig right now too. Doing the right things to lose weight, but as usual it isn’t working and as usual, I have a seriously deep hatred of myself for being fat.
Funny weight loss "inspiration" and super excited for the future!
I learned a little recently about places to share recipes and reels and I am soon going to start releasing both on a regular basis! I also intend to get a little more regular about my pists HERE as I think that will be good for me and this website. I decided to put weight loss stuff into the DaVinci AI and this is what it gave me lol. The first is “how to stretch while working on a laptop”. The second prompt is “burn fat while you sleep”. The third is “weight loss inspiration and encouragement”.
Diet day 3
This is what AI made me for my feelings about my diet. How do you think I am feeling?
Charles' birthday
Roland is in total meltdown mode today, so he is seriously making this birthday a problem… On a lighter note, try to guess which one is AI’s version of “Happy Birthday Charles” lol
Today's feelings
Let the feelings speak for themselves. Me and the kids use AI to make a visual representation. We want youbto comment and guess what we are feeling.
My feelings today
Below is my feelings today as inyerpreted by DaVinci AI. Make of it as you will.
New YouTube channels as in interpreted by AI
My latest creative outlets are “I CAN have my favorite pizza again” and “The Roland and Nicolas Show” on YouTube. So I decided to run these ideas through AI. These are the results. What do you think?
Preparing for October Fast
Starting the challenge a little early… the prayer every hour part at least I will try right now… Fasting from my video games for a while and trying to change some habits… Did some art on DaVinci. See if you can figure out the subject matter. Please comment your guess.
New stuff
So today I am super excited! I entered the competition on novelo.com for August, the “It was only a dream” one… check out my entry titled “It’s ALL just a dream!”… Also I have been posting a few little videos on YouTube detailing my health and wellness journey. Check out my channel “Fairris Family Helpful Bits And Entertainment…” Also, the latest AI creations with the kids are here! Take a look!
Kids and I have been messing around with AI art. Roland wants to hike the first one. I do think it looks like a cool spot to run away from the world for a while and live out a few fantasies.
Nicolas wanted to show off thebother one but he doesn’t have much to say about it.
Mother's Day
So I survived Mother’s Day. I hope everyone had a fabulous day. I did some volunteer work and spent some time with my family… Will be doing more of that. I am struggling with sadness right now. My early life was filled with pain and my mother was incredibly cruel. Sometimes it feels like the pain will never heal, lime I will have this deep grief alongside any happiness I feel for the rest of my life. I associate love with the pain of loss and a profound sadness that is like the sadness you feel when you comfort a child you know is dying. I guess maybe it’s because I know my inner child has long since died and I am trying to come to terms with it. I don’t know. Maybe others feel the same things. I just don’t know
Good afternoon! Since I cannot remember or mentally access ANY of my tools when triggered I decided to start posting some of them aroundnthe house. So this is a start…
Women's Conference was awesome
Sharing the recommended reading list/stuff to look up that I compiped over the weekend… I’m going to slowly look all this stuff up and all you lovely friends are welcome to do the same… Also a picture from the Conference and shout out to all my beautiful friemds from The Table.
Camp pine rock
I am at Camp Pine Rock today at a women’s retreat I almost didn’t go to. I’m glad I’m here. Getting ready to go to my first devotional of the morning, then breakfast. I am going to be just fine and this experience is going to be awesome. The picture I am sharing is what DaVinci AI came up with for Camp Pine Rock. It is surprisingly close to accurate.
Acceptance vs approval
Something my therapist told me yesterday I'm still chewing on. Maybe you have some insight into it:
"Acceptance is not the same as approval."
He was explaining that my problem does not lie with self-acceptance but self-approval. I can completely comprehend the reality of my weight and other things and I do not challenge that they are what they are. However, I still strongly disapprove of myself for those things being as they are.
Likewise a person who is highly antagonistic towards gay people may in some cases completely accept the reality that their child is gay- but their disapproval could still lead them to shunning that child.
"FART-Cano!"
This is a volcano created by my sons using DaVinci AI who conceptualized a vocano that erupts in FARTS! I think it is absurdly hilarious and disgusting and creative at the same time. It is also fabulous for helping me through my fears over volcanoes. LOL!
Most Handsome Man In the World LOL
According to AI, this is the most handsome man in the world. This just makes me LOL! He has stunning hair and eyes at least.
